Drkfaery027's Journals

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Hello loves,

I have some time so I thought I would update my journal for those of you who actually read what I write. lol School has been so busy, but I love it. I'm a full time Theater student, so all my classes have to do with my major which is acting of course :) I got a little role in the play Treasure Island, I play Peg, who is a female pirate dressed in disguise. I have like two lines, but I dont care, I feel very lucky to have my role because there are 28 people in this play and only 9 are girls, so I'm very honored to have my role. I haven't done a play since the 8th grade! So I'm very excited to be doing one now and even more excited to be doing something with pirates, since I love love love pirates. My friend is playing Jim Hawkins, which I'm so happy for him, he and I had a make up class together last semester and I convinced him to audition, so I feel very happy to work with him on the play cuz he's so much fun. I was a little nervous at auditions because a lot of the people that were trying out for the play had been doing plays at my school for a long time so I figured they would get the rols since I felt like they played favorites a lot, but what I really like about this cast is that there is tons of new faces including mine, so I'm really thrilled about that. Its going to keep me pretty busy until December, cuz thats when we do our last show, but I have no complaints cuz I love what I do.

Speaking of what I do, I had my very first shoot with a photographer that wasn't one of my friends. His name is Daniel Garay and I absolutely love the way the pictures have come out and he isn't even done editting them! lol I was so nervous at the beginning cuz I felt like I would do everything all wrong, but after the first outfit was done I got more and more relaxed. When he's done editting the photos I'll make sure I put them up as soon as I can. And Daniel was awesome to work with, he gives good direction and really has an eye for what he does, so I'm happy that I had a chance to work with him. I'll most likely have him do more of my photos.

I found him on ModelMayhem, I finally got accepted, it took me 3 tries but I finally got it. Its a great way to meet photographers if you are just starting out like me or to find work. So if you want to model, be a photographer, clothes designer, etc then I highly you suggest go sign up for modelmayhem. And if you live in the bay area I highly recommend you go to Daniel Garay cuz I know you'll get some good photos and he's a great guy to work with.

Welp time for me to do some cleaning, with being busy with school, the play and getting shoots together and such, I've hardly had time to clean up after myself so I really should get that done cuz I can't concentrate with a messy room.

Have a great week and try and have fun whenever you can. And keep it safe! lol

xoxo

Pinkky

Here's a little sneak peak

Vacation had to get away

So again I have been lacking in the updating department, I'm trying to come up with a creative shoot, something that is different from what I've been doing. Last week I got back from vacation in LA, it was a nice little week off. Really had time to clear my head about everything that has been going on in my life, what I'm going to do about my future and all that good stuff. I love LA, its feels so much like home its crazy, I can't wait to move down there. While I was there I went to Disneyland of course, Universal Studios and Hollywood.

My mom didn't tell me or my sis when we were going, but we had somewhat of an idea about when we were going, but that didn't help with the going to bed part. After finally falling asleep around 6 a.m. my mom came woke me up some time after 7 I think to tell me with a videocamera that we were going to Disneyland. Yeah try packing when you're half asleep, its not that easy. Our flight got delayed by a hour so we didn't get into LA until after 2 and didn't get to the hotel until after 5. Our hotel was down the street from Disneyland, so we wanted to see how far it was to walk and such, we were suppose to be just going to Downtown Disney but yeah we got too excited so instead we went to Disneyland. And first ride we went on was Pirates of the Caribbean, which I was totally stoked for cuz I haven't been there since they put the Johnny Depp in. I couldn't get over how realistic they were, I wanted to take one home lol. We stayed until like 11 then walked in Downtown Disney, by this time my feet were exhausted cuz I wore boots, which I thought would be alright since it was only half an inch heel so it basically was flat. But boy does that little bit sure make a difference. We finally get back to the hotel after 12:30 a.m. (we took a shuttle back) and we all pretty much passed out from exhaustion.

Thats pretty much how my whole vacation was, get up and go to bed late so when the vacation was over, we were all a little happy to be able to rest. I bought new sunglasses at the same place I bought my other pairs last year cuz they have the best selections, its this little store on Melrose near the DCMA store. Which the new DCMA collection is pretty sweet, I got a black shirt that the whole pic was in hot pink, it has roses and banners and says DCMA. I was hoping Benji would be in there since he is always twittering about going in there. If any of you saw All Time Low perform on the Tonight Show, we were in Universal City that same day. We missed them probably by 30 mins. at Universal Studios and apparently one of the days I was at Disneyland, Tim Burton was there. I can't believe I didn't see him, he's my favorite director, I would've loved to meet him. Hopefully someday.

This is my last week of summer, I'm actually excited for the semester to start because I have all theater classes finally and I'm really excited about the play that is going to be put on this semester at my school. I hope I get a part.

How is everyone spending their last week or weeks of summer? Did any of you travel? If so, where?

xoxo

Pinkky

Michael Jackson's house :(

Heartbreak sucks!!!

Heartbreak is such a painful thing. I wish there was a button to turn off your feelings. I hate when you fall in love with the wrong person. I'm not saying that falling in love is bad cuz you can fall in love with someone and manage to stay close friends. But when its someone that you really fell hard for its a lot harder to deal with. You feel like you can't breath, think, or even put your feelings into words. Thats what I use to do, I use to write so many songs about anything I was feeling, but now I can hardly put a verse together. I have so many thoughts and feelings going on that I don't really know which words are right to use to help really explain how I feel. Now I didn't just get broken up with or anything like that, I just have these constant thoughts about certain things and I feel the need to express them, since I'm sure you all can relate to what I'm saying. I dont understand a lot about love, except that when you love someone no one else in the world could ever compare to the person you want to be with. I also dont understand how some people can just get over a person so quickly, when they have claimed to have loved them for a long time. So what if there's problems, learn to work through them! Because we're young, we really dont understand that concept of love, like "real love" not I've met you for like 10 mins and I'm in love kind of love, but love that is real, pure, hectic, exciting, unsure, but all at the same time no matter what you'll always be there for that person. I think thats a lot of the reason why people get divorce so much in this country, nobody really thinks about love. They say that they just feel out of love, they were drifting away or whatever. We hate problems so when they come up we like to take the easy route and just don't deal with it until things get so bad you two pretty much want to choke the person whenever you see them.

I've watched my family have different girlfriends, boyfriends and also the ones that have been married. Now I have an uncle who he has 3 kids with my cousins mom and they've had their ups and downs, he even went off and married someone that we all hated, luckily they got divorced, but yet my uncle has always found himself back to my cousins mom. I can tell they love each other and I know they've been through a lot but they are still together and thats what I love. There's that saying that if you love someone set them free and if they come back it was meant to be. Now I half and half believe in that, I believe that if you are meant to be with someone, you'll be with them no matter how long or what happens that is the person for you. But then there's that half thats doubt, that whenever you go through a break up you never know if its really the end. I know I'm young, but I feel like I've experienced a lot through my 20 years of being alive. I've only had 3 serious boyfriends and I've dated. I find that dating is just a waste of time, I'm not the kind of person that just dates, I tend to stay a long time in a relationship, which is probably why I've only had 3 serious ones. But there's only one that I feel hurt the most and that was my last boyfriend. We broke up last April, but basically stayed together without the title of boyfriend and girlfriend. Then last October, shit happened and now I'm still having a hard time dealing with things in my life now. Granted there's a lot of good in my life, I'm closer to my family, I know exactly who my good friends are, I am trying to pursue the things that I love, but through everything I feel like a part of me is missing. I dont know whats missing, I just feel this emptiness that no matter how great everything is there's still that little part of me that just doesn't feel right. You know what I mean?

Which brings me back to now, whenever its late I start to really think cuz during the day I'm busy so I dont have time to actually stop and think, but when its this time I can't stop and thats when everything starts to bug me. I hate having this empty feeling, I have so much good in my life, that I feel like there's no reason for me to feel this way. I feel like I should be past everything thats happened in my past and be done. But I'm not, no matter how much I try. I've been doing things to better myself and I am proud of myself. I use to be in a really tough and dark place but I managed to get out of it, even though I never thought it was possible. I'm def. a more positive, stronger, caring, understanding person now, but its that one little feeling that holds me back. Like I feel if I take a step forward, I go two steps back. Ehh life and love two of the most confusing things in my life.

So if you read this whole thing thanks :) Message or comment me if you have something to get off your chest, I'm a good listener and I like to help :)

Leave me some of your thoughts <3

xoxo

Pinky

Breakfast At Pinkky's

Sorry for the lack of updating lately, I've been working on a new myspace for me and it took a while to add people, update stuff, but here I am ready to blab. I finally got to do my Audrey Hepburn inspired shoot, hair and make up only took me a hour and a half and setting up wasnt too hard. I read somewhere that Audrey Hepburn had a yorkie, so I was excited to have my baby join me in the shoot. She did such a good job, she's such a camera whore I love it! haha She's def. my baby. I'd say my hardest part of the shoot was trying to look "gentle" Audrey Hepburn always had this soft, happy look upon her face whenever she took a picture, it was really hard to capture that. Next shoot I want to do is 1940's theme. I love the 40's fashion era and I want to do something like that, with more of a pin-up look, hopefully I can get a few more shoots in before I live to LA.

I'm excited to go to LA, shopping, Disneyland, different environment, and more shopping. lol I seriously need a vacation from everything, I've been stressed out a lot and I'm still trying to get over some bad situations that happened a few months ago, so it would be amazing just to get away. I will miss my baby, I wish she could go, but unfortunately she hates being around loads of people, shes sweet but not friendly at first. So I have to leave her with my gma, which I know she'll be taken care of, but I still am going to worry about her and miss her.

I can't believe summer is almost over, its so sad. I think it should be a law that no school can start before September, its like come on, kids are only kids for so long, let them enjoy their youth. I'm not complaining too much cuz I'm not going back until the end of this month and I have all theater classes :D I'm a little excited for that.

I've been watching tons of movies lately, haha what else is new? I've seen Funny People, which was a good movie, it actually had a storyline, that you don't really see in most comedies so I liked it. I've seen The Ugly Truth and The Proposal, U.T. was funny, more of a chick flick then anything else and if you know me I'm not really into chick flicks but there are some funny/good ones out there. The Proposal was funny. Ryan Reynolds omgoodess he is so saucy and I love Sandra B., I want to see that new movie with her coming out with Bradley Cooper, I forget the name, but it looks cute. I also went see the Orphan, which it was your typical thriller but it had a twist so that was interesting. I've seen Ice Age 3D: Dawn of the Dinosaurs. It was a cute movie, funny, its funny that when you're younger you dont realize that they are making adult jokes but keeping them G Rated, haha I love it. I wanted more things to pop out at me, since I saw in 3D, plus they charge you extra for the 3D glasses, whether or not you have a pair, which is bogus in my opinion, a movie already costs a buttload to go watch one movie, plus snacks there are outrageous. The only thing I get is an Icee cuz I really like those lol

I've come to accept the fact that I don't know how to put video up to my computer, which blows cuz I was really looking forward to doing those videos, but I'll keep trying! My plans for this week are to play monopoly, get in at least 3 photoshoots, I have filming on thursday with Jason and to hang with my buds :D

What are your plans for the rest of the week?

xoxo

Pinkky

Ohh yeah here's the url to my new myspace: myspace.com/prettyinpinkky

ADD ME!!! :D <333

Monsters Inside Me

Hello loveys!

Sorry I haven't been updating as much, I've just been so tired and busy and you know all that time consuming stuff. But I'm going to try and update more whenever I can. Luckily I've been relaxing more this week so that I can finally do my Audrey Hepburn inspired photoshoot. I might be able to later today or tomorrow so stay posted. Ive been trying to upload my video of my 10 Things...and its an epic failure. I have no idea why it wont upload, I'm just really irriated with my computer all around. :|

Today I'm going to my gmas, I wonder what funny or awkward convos we're going to have :) I really want to go see The Orphan, it looks like it would be a good movie. Also I want to see the plays that are going at my school, I feel outta the loop since I havent been to my school since like last month, a theater student has got to keep up! I'm a little sad that summer is almost over, as much as I love my theater classes, I'm dreading the idea of hw, waking up early and school in general. It feels like summer just flew by. Next month although I am excited for, I'm finally going to go on my trip to LA! Words can't even begin to describe how excited I am. I've been watching two shows on Animal Planet that scare the crap out of me they're called Monsters Inside and I was Bitten. Boy those shows are scary, nature is a scary thing and now I fear almost everything outdoors. Yeah its sad I know....

Welp I gotta get ready

Peace & Love

Pinkky

Well hello everyone! :p I finally have a little bit of down time where I'm not running around all over the place. I swear I dont know they meaning of relaxing. I'm suppose to be taking it easy cuz I've been so exhausted and have been running on like 4-5 hours or less of sleep every day. Darn insomnia! Wednesday Gretta and I did a shoot, the picture are up now so go check them out! Have any of you checked out Hannabeth's new t-shirt line with Glamour Kills, pretty sweet tees I got one :) I signed up for model mayhem, I'm waiting for my profile to get approved so I'll let you know when its up. Which reminds me I am changing the spelling of my name because there's a lot of Pinkys out there so I'm just changing it to Pinkky. Nothing huge just a tad different.

Last night my bestie, his lil bro, James, my sis and I went see Harry Potter cuz I really like the movies haha It was good, sad but good. I use to read the books but my attention spand is not that good I just stopped cuz I wasnt paying attention to what I was reading, so I dont know how accurate it was to the book.

I need a bubble bath! haha Well have a good weekend!

xoxo

Pinkky

Bloopers...

Endless days

So yesterday was a very LONG day. After I left my grandmas, I had to go shopping for her. She wanted me to decorate her bathroom, cuz my gma is a woman of change. I'm like her, I get so bored with things so easily that I need constant change. Granted it killed my hair, but thats why I go to Giovanni for haha Anyways she wanted it to be a more happy, colorful, brighter bathroom. So I found this shower curtain that had these really pretty butterflies on them and they were these really bright colors. Knowing how detailed my gma likes things, I literally probably spent about a half hour trying to find towels for display to match the curtain. Then I had the idea to take a butterfly and match its colors with the towels. (I wish I would've thought of it earlier) Anyways so that seemed to help, then when I was finally done shopping for my gma. I went back to her house to put the stuff away then decorate. But before I could decorate the bathroom, I had to clean it cuz thanks to plumber Ryan making a huge mess. Scrubbing the bathtub at 10 at night is exactly what I want to be doing ;p But it was so worth the decorating. I'm very proud of my design and hard work :D I left my gmas close to 11, then when I get home my mom starts in on me about dishes. Now I knew I had a pot in there when I made french fries the night before but that is not a big deal to have a cow over. Do you find it funny how when a parent does something once they want like a gold star and a "great job mom" when its done, but when you do something all the time that you know they'll nag about until its done, how they are just like "well its about time"? Seriously, I was so over my moms nagging. But then that caused my sis to clean her room, then I didn't want to have a messy room (even tho it wasn't really dirty) so I cleaned mine. By the end of the night I was so exhausted, that I could barely stand. Too much cleaning for one day ahhh!

I just started a facebook, which I don't really know why since I barely even use myspace. But I have one and my friend sent me a Join Her Sorority (sp?) thingy and I'm a little addicted. I want all the medals and loads of money in the game. But as I'm typing it out now, I feel really lame. haha Gretta and I are getting some shoots together, which means more shopping for stuff. I'm starting this new "10 Things" video set, that every week or maybe twice depending on how busy I am, I'll do like 10 Random facts about me, 10 things I like, hate, movies, etc. I just got to figure out why in the world my videos wont go on my computer. I swear I would be very gratful (again I'm too lazy to figure out the right spelling) to have a laptop. Its kinda one of those neccessities in life for a person who spends a lot of their time on say buzznet. Haha plus I really want to play Sims 3, but my computer now doesn't have nearly as much open space as that one needs. And I dont have the attention spand to sit there while it loads for forever.

I wish I could go back to sleep, I have a major headache and I need Iceed coffee. I really like the .99 cents one at 7-11, maybe cuz its a buck. Who really knows? Well have a good rest of the day and I would love to hear what you think should be my next photoshoot. :D

xoxo

Pinky

Oh and she's half the reason I couldn't go back to sleep. She kept sniffing me for her baby

Ready aim fire!!!!

Hey everyone! How's everyone enjoying their Monday? Currently at my grandmas waiting for my uncle to get here so he can give me her card so I can go shopping for her. The plumber is working in the bathroom for the shower and he's making everyone hold their pee, good thing I went before cuz I have a very small bladder. Yay!!! my grandma just told me I can choose the decorations for her room and bathroom. I love decorating its so fun!!! I love being at my grandmas, there's always good times, food and awkward or random convos. My grandma just got done talking about how she's sick of Oprah complaining that she's fat, she said she has enough money to be skinny that she doesnt need to be complaining. Then proceeded to tell us how fat Kelly Clarkson has gotten. Haha I love my grandma she's always so random and has the funniest stories. Family is the most important thing in life, they are the only ones that will be there for you when you hit bottom. And friends could be family as well. As long as you have good friends and family, you can get through just fine in life. Cherish those who cherish you :D

Must I say that this plumber guy is NOT your typical plumber, no hairy buttcrack, not fat, he's actually a little cute. I'm just sayin. Thursday I went see Transformers 2 ROTF, with Gretta and my friends Sean and Chris. I love watching movies with Chris, he's forever cracking me up. I liked the movie for the most part, I think that Megan Fox was only in it to make things hot. Dont get me wrong, I love Megan Fox, but her character's storyline was a lot bigger in the first one. Shia is a great actor, I remember when he was on Even Stevens all young and nerdy. Haha def. has grown up ;p Friday I went see Public Enemy with my boy. I love Johnny Depp, not cuz he's an amazingily hot but because he's a great actor. He's forever playing unique roles and works with my favorite director Tim Burton. I grew up watching Johnny Depp cuz my mom loved him so of course I fell in love with him. I hope that one day I could work with him, that would be one of greatest moments of my life :D

Welp hopefully my uncle gets here soon I got a lot to do. Let me know how your 4th of July was and what movie your excited to see or what movie you're crazy about.

Peace & Love

Pinky

Contest Winner and Happy 4th of July

Hey everybody! Happy 4th of July :D

Anyone have plans to go see any fireworks? I am, I love watching fireworks esp with friends and family. I remember two years ago I went with a bf at the time and my bestie and were at a beach in Santa Cruz and my bf at the time, his friends were lighting fireworks. It was awesome to be so close to them, but also very dangerous cuz one girl got her sweater caught on fire cuz of a firework that shot back and we almost got hit. So be safe tonight if you are doing your own fireworks. :D

Well I have huge news and it involes the contest, Gretta and I felt that you all did a awesome job and we very much appreciate your comments and messages. So thank you very much to those who particapted. :D The winner of the Summer Giveaway is annie2000. Thank you sweetie you did an awesome job. Congrats!!!! :D

Well be having some more giveaways so stay tuned! :D

Welp my little busy bod has to get ready cuz I'm leaving to go out with my family for some fireworks so I gotta finish or else my mom will never leave and she finally got up to get ready.

Have a good and safe 4th of July!

xoxo

Pinky

SF Warped!!! :D

Hey everyone! Enjoying Monday?

I had an amazing time at Warped Tour, it was so good. I got to see The Maine, A Rocket to the Moon, 3OH!3 and others. I got there after 10 and of course there was a huge line, it wasnt too terrible trying to find parking. After we got in, we walked around trying to find the board that says what time the bands play and such. When we finally found it, we(Gretta and Bff Jill) found out that White Tie Affair had already played, so I was bummed cuz I wanted to see them. The Maine, 3Oh!3, A Rocket to the Moon didnt play until later so we had lots of time to spare. We went walking around and found The Maine's tent and there were tons of people surrounding it so I figured some of them were there. I first saw Kennedy and Pat and I was trying to find John Ohhh, then Bff Jill was like 'isn't that John Ohhh?' and I looked at yes it was. I should've known with all the girls just crowding, I felt a little bad, if that were me I would feel so closed in, its a good thing that he's tall. I was waiting to get my picture, trying to not have word vomit which wind up with me spitting out one word answers. Ehh I hate that I get so flastered around him, I've met Good Charlotte a bunch of times and I've never gotten word vomit or anything. John Ohhh is the ONLY one that I get so nervous and flastered around. And I tell myself he's a normal person, its all good, but noooo me and my stupid crush haha Anyways after meeting them, my friends Sarah and Connie got there and we met up with them and it was so good to see them cuz they live far away so we hardly ever get to see them. We watched Jeffree Star a little bit, then went watch Sing It Loud, they were good, check them out. Water was a must that day I brought some that was frozen then of course it melted, then I brought more, it is so important to drink water, not soda or energy drinks, so that you dont get dehydrated. Anyways after Sing It Loud, we went walk around some more. I stopped by the New York Couture tent and got a really cute metallic pink bow, I'm so excited to wear it. Sarah and I won free t-shirts from the Truth guys, we had to do a dancing game. Gretta, Bff Jill and I ran into Dirk, he's such a sweetie. Finally it was time for The Maine, omgoodness, their cover for "Pour Some Sugar On Me" was awesome. Not many people knew it, but my group rocked out to it. Ahh they did such a good job I really enjoyed their performance. After The Maine ended we bolted to the mainstage for 3OH!3, luckily we got there before they started. 3Oh!3's set was like a party, even though a lot of people stood still, it was like "c'mon enjoy yourself". Though I swear I got a contact high from people smoking weed near us....maybe thats why I was so dancy. haha jk By the end of their set I was so exhausted I wanted to go to bed, but there was still A Rocket to the Moon left so I needed to find some energy. They're set was a good way to end the day, I enjoyed listening and singing along. Warped ended pretty much after A Rocket to the Moon played, which was so odd cuz it was hecka early. Sarah and Connie had to leave, which is always sad to see them go cuz we always have so much fun together. I went on a search to find John Ohhh, I know it sounds like I'm a creeper, I just wanted to say by and make another attempt to talk to him, hahaha well I found him and I managed to mutter out a few more words, but thats ok. Sercurity was ridiculous, they were so rude and terrible to people. A lady screamed in my face and telling me to leave, when Nick and Eric from A Rocket to the Moon were still signing, so we missed them. All in all it was a great day and I cant wait until August comes to go again.

Other news very sad that Michael Jackson died, I grew up listening to him and when I was little I would try to do the moonwalk and dance like him. So I know I'll always remember him.

The contest has ended, we'll be announcing the winner later this week, so stay tuned!! I now have a SayNow account so feel free to leave me random and crazy messages, I love randomness. :D

Well off I go busy busy

xoxo Pinky

p.s. let me know your favorite Warped Tour moment :)

Drkfaery027's Journals

PEG

Vacation had to get away

Heartbreak sucks!!!

Breakfast At Pinkky's

Monsters Inside Me

Pinkky

Endless days

Ready aim fire!!!!

*Contest Winner and Happy 4th of July*

SF Warped!!! :D

Contest Winner and Happy 4th of July